Well I said I'd write bi-weekly so I'm here again tryin to be good on my word. This last week and a half/ two weeks have been fairly uneventful--thankfully. After my last post I had a handful of people reach out to me about their own struggles with Hashimotos and that really helped me to understand that it's not just me...I'm not abnormal in how I feel, how constantly exhausted I am and the weight I've gained. I even got a few tidbits of advice that have been invaluable to me as well, I now go to bed by 9pm and make sure to have "me time". While I'm still battling the constant nausea, dizziness and light-headedness from my vertigo things haven't changed much. I'm really looking forward to my appointment with my Dr. in September in hopes that there's something I can do to combat this constant fog of sleepiness.
In other news I made it to the temple last week, it was so refreshing and much needed. I'm grateful that Heavenly Father takes us in whatever state we come and is patient in helping us to be better, more healed, more comforted. Sunday Judson and I had the opportunity to meet with my bishop as well, while he didn't really counsel me like I'd expected he did empathized with my situation and share some of his own families struggles--I suppose we all have our own trials and some cannot be helped immediately. In a talk entitled "Waiting upon the Lord: Thy Will Be Done" by Robert D. Hales, he states, "Too often we pray for patience, but we want it right now!" When I read this I'd never before considered that when I prayed for patience in my trials that God would not give it to me instantaneously, that I would have to wait for the blessing of patience in order to endure the trials that were placed before me. I do know that everything will be made right in God's time, though I can't help but wish this part of my life would speed up so I could move on to healthier days. Thankfully I have a husband that is as stubborn as I am about making it though these trials and constantly supports me regardless of how needy or whiny I get. Unfortunately school starts again in a month and I'm honestly scared that I wont be able to handle it, that I just wont have the energy to function like I need to. I know focusing on it or being afraid wont help me but it's just where I'm at right now. Anyways I'm still reading the Book of Mormon, still trying to take more time to enjoy the things that I love and have even been blessed with an opportunity to serve for an extended period of time...it's easy and manageable and I'm so thankful I get to do this one small thing for someone else when I generally feel so useless. So I'm still moving forward and I can feel the heavenly help even in the little things.Lastly, most people I've talked to aren't thrilled about it but it was such a tender mercy for me to walk outside yesterday and feel a slight crispness in the air: fall is coming and I love all things fall. God truly is in the details of our lives and for that I am grateful.
